It’s hard to realize day to day how much your body has changed when you’re losing weight. It takes time, and pretty soon you get used to the new self you see and forget what the old self looks like. (And if you’re lucky and have body dysmorphia, you convince your crazy brain that you look exactly the same as you did before. Fun times.)
I’m officially done losing weight. It’s been almost seven months, and I’ve lost 17 pounds. Here’s what 17 pounds looks like.
Yep, I lost a Bailey.
And now for a more humbling version of 17 pounds.
On the left is the picture that made me start my weight loss: my 33rd birthday, taken from my hotel room in Tokyo. The heaviest I’ve ever been in my life. It is so.hard. for me to look at this picture, let alone leave it on my blog or repost it again! On the right is a picture my husband took this morning.
The craziest part? I’m wearing the same skirt. The bad lighting in my hotel room caused me to lighten the heck outta the pic on the left, but it’s the same skirt.
So where did I go wrong? Well, in my 20s I was super lucky and never gained weight. No matter what I ate or drank, or however many days I spent laying on the bed (probably hungover), I didn’t gain a pound. I was so lucky!! But the luck backfired on me when I turned 30 and my body started changing fast. I didn’t know anything about calories and paid no attention to the way I was eating. I basically just pretended I was in my 20s still. And the biggest mistake I made? I went up a size in clothes instead of losing weight. Because now I have a closet full of suits that are too big (see, e.g., the picture on the right!).
I can’t help regretting the last three years. I regret buying bigger clothes that now need to get tailored. I regret getting rid of clothes instead of losing weight. I regret letting myself go. I regret forcing my husband to watch me spiral down and not being able to help.
But. It is what it is. :) And now, I am happier in my own skin now than I’ve ever been in my entire life.
So I decided to post this horrible before and after picture today to remind myself where I’ve been and how much I’ve accomplished. And if anyone reads this and wants to change your life too: it sounds so lame, but seriously–you can do it!!
Thanks for listening friends. I miss you; more posts coming soon.